Black Cat Blog

So I am really struggling right now to come up with the motivation to learn JavaScript because I am so focused on the HTML and CSS aspect of this web development class that I am taking, The Odin Project. It feels like it is too dramatic a shift. If I

It turns out that this partial hospitalization program at MeadowWood Behavioral Health Hospital is a giant waste of time. It is nothing more than a psychiatric mill and a warehouse; simply a place to go during the day and nothing more, perhaps everything less. To say I am disappointed in

In the coming weeks I know that I am going to have to prepare for my eventual move to subsidized housing through NAMI so I've begun a deep cleaning of my apartment and going through my various odds and ends. While working on my office last night, I

Today I did what I really did not want to do and made the bus trip into New Castle, to sign up for the one partial hospitalization program in the State of Delaware that accepts my health insurance: MeadowWood. As an aside, the US bloody US health insurance system is

So my previous posting and the ensuing research made me realize just how much I over thought my plans to have a little bit of fun with a site-to-site network when I could just do a software-defined overlay network and it would vastly simplify things. Instead of doing things like

Once I move, I've got a fun little project that I've actually begun doing the research for today since I enjoy this kind of thing, especially when it is about open source, Linux, and BSD. I think I got my friend, Jim, intrigued a little by

Today I had some time to kill and I wasn't feeling like doing any learning on The Odin Project so I decided to do some prep work for moving to subsidized housing. The subsidized housing that I am going to be moving to includes all utilities and internet

As the title reads, it has been a rough two days. My car has been voluntarily surrendered to the local Hyundai dealership and I'm now without a car. I guess I hadn't realized how upending the experience would really be. After dropping off the keys, I

Right now I am working on a future plan to earn a small amount of money once I get back on Social Security Disability. I know that I am going to need to stay somewhat busy without exceeding the substantial gainful activity threshold and that is going to be difficult

Today I have quite a few mixed feelings. To start with, I'm feeling both upset and relieved simultaneously about surrendering my car. I know that I will save a lot of money on insurance, gas, and maintenance which will be nice. But I will lose a lot of

I have reached a kind of Zen-like acceptance about my life and there is some relief and peace in having reached this status. I have Autism and a mental illness so trying to get mentally healthy again is taking too much energy to handle while working a full time job.

Today has been an incredibly frustrating and high anxiety day. My anxiety ran so high that not even my known coping skills of box breathing and painting on my Buddha Board could help bring it down. So I ended up taking an Ativan this afternoon which pretty much knocked me

While I was in hospital from February 20th through the 28th, I made a close friend. His name is Remy and he's by all counts a good and decent human being who I'm proud to know. Unfortunately, he's still in patient so I called

I once had a long discussion on cats with a friend. We were both talking about what it is that draws us to them. Both of us like how cats probably see humans as their peers, that is fellow felines on the same level, as themselves. This makes them almost