Month: June 2024
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I Have No Agency
Read more: I Have No AgencyI feel like I have absolutely no agency in my own life. I mean none whatsoever. I have no say and no control and I simply feel like a pinball bouncing off of mechanical bumpers. My section 8 housing has not quite lived up to the promise of being a good place to stay. The…
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Glutton For Punishment
Read more: Glutton For PunishmentSometimes I think I might simply be a glutton for punishment. Well, I have decided to pick up The Odin Project again for learning full stack web development. I realized that I kind of need to go through a course so that I can learn this and then move to WordPress. I need a solid…
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Continued Frustration With Learning
Read more: Continued Frustration With LearningI am facing some continued frustration with learning web development. The topic is so broad that it is difficult to know where to start and I am finding myself skim reading instead of carefully delving into the subject matter. It seems like I am all over the place in 360 different directions. I am going…
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Doing Better Today
Read more: Doing Better TodayI don’t know whether or not that this is just a mind over matter thing but I am doing better today. It seems like the additional afternoon dose of Effexor has some carry over effect into the next day. My mood is better but I still don’t have the concentration. The mornings are definitely easier.…
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Running WordPress With Podman
Read more: Running WordPress With PodmanI am a fan of using Podman over Docker to run software and platforms whenever possible because Podman is fully open source and it features rootless operation. Being able to run containers rootless is a good security measure. I wrote this little piece to document what I’ve done to make WordPress work with Podman 5.0…
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Mornings Are A Little Easier
Read more: Mornings Are A Little EasierIt looks like there might be something to what my physician’s assistant had said at my last visit. This morning it was definitely a little easier to get out of bed and I feel a shade better than I did yesterday. So maybe the higher dosage of Effexor at 300mg is more effective for me?…
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Mornings Continue To Be Difficult
Read more: Mornings Continue To Be DifficultI know that I am still suffering quite heavily from Major Depressive Disorder because mornings continue to be very difficult. This morning was certainly no exception. I wake up severely depressed and have to fight simply to get out of bed and function. As the day wears on the depression lifts, and by the time…
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Moving Done
Read more: Moving DoneI am all moved in to my new place now and I feel a measured sense of relief. I can now resume my life. Although this new location is kind of challenging because it is not close to a bus station. I am going to have to work towards car ownership one way or another.…
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Moving Day
Read more: Moving DayWell moving day has finally arrived and I am an absolute nervous wreck. My anxiety is through the roof. It’s so high that my appetite is even less than it normally is and I’ve had gastric bypass. I managed really only a few bites of the bagel and cream cheese that I made for myself.…
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Today I Saw My Doctor
Read more: Today I Saw My DoctorToday I saw my prescribing doctor and he and I made some medication changes which I hope might bring about a desired result. I am still very depressed and have moments when that mixes with anger and frustration. I told him that my ability to concentrate is still very poor and I’ve been unable to…
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