Month: June 2024
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Battling Anger And Depression
Read more: Battling Anger And DepressionThis morning I am battling anger and depression and I slept like shit. I woke up every two hours and had just plain weird dreams. I don’t really know what’s going on but I am going to see my psychiatric physican’s assistant today. I am going to tell him what I am feeling and maybe…
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Moving Soon
Read more: Moving SoonI am going to be moving on Tuesday and I just cannot seem to get my butt in gear. I know I still have some packing and cleaning to do but it’s all so overwhelming. I am not sleeping well and that may be causing a lot of anxiety. I guess I am also feeling…
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Revisiting Software Development
Read more: Revisiting Software DevelopmentI guess you could say that I am trying to figure out how I learn best and I think I learn best from a book, rather than from websites and these online courses. So I am re-thinking trying web development yet again. I don’t quite know whether I am stubborn, persistent, or just plain both.…
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Thinking About The Future
Read more: Thinking About The FutureI know that this is probably not a good idea but I really and truly cannot help myself at the moment. I am thinking about the future and wondering what I am going to do to earn money. I think I would like to eventually go back to working in Information Technology. The problem is…
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The Struggle Is Real
Read more: The Struggle Is RealToday the struggle is absolutely real. I got to bed very late last night and had difficulty falling asleep. The result of the difficulty is that I awoke this morning feeling hung over and kind of sick. It was really difficult to get out of bed but I am glad that I did. I decided…
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Not Cut Out For Software Development
Read more: Not Cut Out For Software DevelopmentUnfortunately, I think I am not really cut out for software development. My brain just does not think along those lines. I don’t feel badly about it, I just accept it. I do want to design websites but I think I can use WordPress as a base for the designs and can learn enough coding…
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I Feel Accomplished
Read more: I Feel AccomplishedToday I discovered a treasure trove of courses put on by the University of Helsinki. They have a website, mooc.fi, that has free courses in computer science. I actually got excited because it will give me some real structured learning that I am craving. I created an account and decided to start at the beginning…
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Sick Of The Struggle
Read more: Sick Of The StruggleToday I am sick of the struggle of poverty and mental illness. The unfairness of life in the United States of America has come crashing down on me. Yes, I am feeling sorry for myself today. I am going to be moving into section 8 housing next weekend. For the life of me, I never…
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Steps To Take For Self-Improvement
Read more: Steps To Take For Self-ImprovementNow that I have gotten all of my feelings outside of my head and on to paper, it’s time to formulate a plan for self improvement. There are some steps that I can take and I am certainly intelligent enough to succeed at. Now it is time to brainstorm a plan for self-education to see…
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Lots Of Emotions This Morning
Read more: Lots Of Emotions This MorningAs the title reads, I have a lot of emotions this morning and they’re a mixture of anger, sadness, despair, and hopelessness. These emotions were brought on by yesterday’s inspection and lease signing of my Section 8 shared housing. While I am grateful for being able to have a roof over my head, the house…
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