It really helps to have a competent care team in place and yesterday my resident psychiatrist and her attending physician really believe that I had been misdiagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder, and in reality, I am a variation on Bipolar. My doctor said that if I did not suffer from Bipolar Disorder then Latuda would not have worked as well as it had. Unfortunately, Geodon, which is in the same class and family as Latuda, is not approved to treat Bipolar Depression and would explain why it only makes me sleepy and did not work effectively.
Latuda is a very expensive medication because it is not available in generic and I would have to meet my prescription plan’s 450 dollar deductible before the plan would start fully covering the medication. So in order to pick up my first 30 day supply, I would need to come up with 497.00 out of pocket. This is a large amount of money for somebody on Social Security Disability. I may have to start a cash app or venmo account to raise the money for this.
Despite the medication setback, I feel somewhat vindicated in that I felt I might be Bipolar but no psychiatrist before the ones I am seeing now would even entertain the possibility despite me raising the specter of it. In fact, they were the ones that brought it up and not me which could mean either my self-advocacy skills are improving and I am communicating better or these doctors are just good diagnosticians. They even said that ECT generally works best for people with Bipolar Disorder and ECT really helped to snap me out of the worst of the depression. I will need some maintenance ECT sessions but we do not know just yet what the frequency of them will be.
To everyone out there whom struggles with mental illness, please do not give up hope and please keep fighting. As in my case, it may take years to get things right but you are worth it. As one of the creeds of the National Alliance on Mental Illness states, Until there is a cure. I hope everyone has a good morning and a good day.