I desperately need better housing than what I have. I mean I am grateful that I have a roof over my head but my housemates are absolute pigs and nothing I can or say will convince them to clean up after themselves better. I have one housemate who suffers from schizo-affective disorder and he refuses to take his medication which causes a lot of turmoil. This is kind of impetus for me to work towards a Red Hat certification but it is negative motivation. I need to find positive motivation somehow.
I am just in foul mood. I wanted to wake up and ease into the day but this one housemate with SAD woke me up to say that the hot water heater was leaking badly. I go down to check it out and it’s just dripping. I have to remember that he has a mental illness but everything is a minor catastrophe to this kid and it’s getting old; very old. I lost my temper with him and said angrily, “This is just a drip. Everything with you is a minor catastrophe.”
I feel like I am stuck in this situation, and for the time being, I am but this is better than homelessness and life in a shelter. They talk about gratitude so here goes: I am grateful to have a room of my own with a real bed, a real desk, a computer, and a phone. I am grateful not to be homeless and living out of a shelter or motel. I am grateful for the Social Security Disability that I get. And finally I am grateful that I woke up this morning.
What am I going to do today? Today I am going to study for my Red Hat certification. I am going to spend some time reading and working through the labs of the study guide that I bought. This is one particular road towards a better life and it’s well worth pursuing. The economy is not real great right now so I am fortunate enough to have some money coming in the door. Now is the time to “upskill” and learn!