After a night filled with really vivid and not-so-great dreams, I am doing a little better today than I was yesterday. At least today I am not ready to drive myself to the hospital with suicidal ideation, that’s an improvement. I don’t have much to say today so this is going to be a short entry because I am at least stable, if far from being not depressed. I still feel as if life is hopeless for me and I still feel anxious about the future. What does one do if things seem hopeless?
Well I am going to keep on trudging forward. This week I would like to make significant strides towards getting employment again. That’s going to be my goal because I need to be doing something, even if only part time. Being busy and productive may end up helping my mood in the short term. I just hope I can find a job that I can tolerate and does not drive me off of the deep end. I have some ideas.