In only a week and a half, I will be heading up to visit Denisse, the new woman in my life and I am very excited and nervous. The more we chat, the more excited I become. This visit is going to be somewhat expensive because I have to rent a car and stay in a hotel room but it’s going to be very well worth it. There’s really so much to like about Denisse because she’s real and down to earth. I really do feel like a teenager again. I feel like I miss her even though we haven’t met yet in real life.
Since Denisse is really in to the Marvel superheroes, I am going to take her to see Deadpool and Wolverine. I enjoy the movies too. I am also looking forward to having a nice romantic dinner again with someone special. I miss the intimacy and connection and I am so happy I’ve found it. I am thankful to my friend for connecting the two of us.
I am also feeling happy because my depression is slowly lifting. The mornings are becoming much easier for me. The additional dosage of medication has helped tremendously. I wake up feeling less foggy headed and more cheerful; feeling less inertia to begin the day. Today I have some serious plans to knock out Red Hat studying and make some progress on the WordPress class that I purchased on Udemy. I think it will be easier to do this since I am feeling better.
I am ready to make some major personal strides starting today with learning and getting out of being mired in poverty and disability. It’s going to take awhile and a lot of patience and determination but I am going to do it. I especially want to do it if I am to potentially have a life with Denisse. I know this is putting the cart before the horse but my mind is gravitating to this because she is compassionate and empathetic in a way I have never encountered before.
I wonder what I can do to eke out a living and what I can try to do. I know I have a lot of ideas: developing websites for small businesses, writing technical books, working as a Linux System Administrator, etc. Being a world of ideas is all fine and dandy, but, I need to turn at least one of the ideas into something based in reality. What I know I can do starting today is to sit down and begin writing that technical book and study Red Hat Linux. These are two concrete things that I can do that will produce some result.