I am feeling especially grouchy this morning but I am not really angry, just fairly grouchy. Now that the days are starting to get longer again it is making it hard to go to sleep at night. I am going to have to talk to my psychiatrist about a prescription for Ambien because sleep is becoming difficult. Since the days are now longer, my body takes much longer to wind down to go to sleep and I find myself tossing and turning for a while. I do much better with the shorter days.
Despite feeling grouchy, I managed to apply to three jobs: two desktop support and a paratransit driving job. I will call that a win and a day because I am just too scattered to do any more. I cannot read any more job descriptions that have the words, “Must have a positive attitude.” It is a little hard to have a positive attitude when I am being underpaid and overworked in a form of indentured servitude. I cannot stomach these expectations of being grateful for having scraps thrown at me. One of my Twitter followers pointed out that whole positive attitude thing in a really astute observation.
I have to find some other things to do today and create some goals. I needed to contact my case manager and I tried calling her except that her voicemail is full so I will have to send an email. My case manager has a large work load but she is very good at getting back to me and she obviously cares very much. In these times, social services and similar resources as taxed well beyond capacity. I am in awe of what she can do because some days just thinking is overwhelming for me.
I may take a drive down to one of the places that has a job opening for a parts delivery person. In times like these, most, if not all, employers want you to apply online. This particular place wants people to come and apply in person so that means they may want to interview and hire on the spot. I realize that this kind of situation could go one of two ways: either this is a serious need or this place is so shitty to work at that they’re desperate. I realize that there is no such thing as the ideal job anymore but I might make the drive down there and apply because I have nothing else going on and it certainly does not hurt.