ECT is a very miserable experience. Despite knowing what to expect, I was still nervous and my anxiety was really high. The worst part of the experience is waking up from anesthesia and feeling disoriented and confused. I did forget how ECT causes the jaw to ache. I don’t think I will be doing much today anyhow.
I think I also forgot that ECT can cause a temporary worsening of depression brought on by the anesthetic drugs. Today I have to be extra kind to myself. I just wish mental illness was not a constant battle. Well maybe I will feel better after a nap. Some shut eye is probably in order so this will be a really quick blog.