This morning I am reminded of why it is so important for people in the mental illness community to not only create healthy routines but to maintain them fairly strictly. Yesterday, I deviated from the routine that I had established and just did not make the effort to do a lot. Consequently, yesterday was a struggle to not sink back into a depressive episode. I woke up and yesterday and just did not feel like doing anything; I gave in to the feeling when the facts surrounding healthy routines speak for themselves. Thus, it is something of a lesson learned that even the most basic of routines must be not only established but maintained.
I am in the mood for a Memorial Day treat of a pancake, bacon, coffee, and water breakfast at the local diner so I will go ahead and do that. While eating breakfast, I will resume the creative writing of the first “episode” of my serial and then put it out on Twitter. This is something that I actually wanted to complete on Saturday but did not achieve that goal so today I will. Putting out that first episode of my story about time travel will make me feel like I have achieved a lot.
By doing a little bit of blogging and creative writing each day as a part of my routine, I will have two small victories in addition to completing what my program calls ADLs or adult daily living responsibilities. It really and truly does feel good to make my bed and do the daily hygiene tasks. I have also been looking into going back to work again on a part-time basis. I want a part-time gig where I can drive and I am not marooned in an office somewhere. The idea is to earn 1300 bucks in addition to the 1600 that I get from Social Security.
It does not matter so much what I do, I just do not want to plunge into the deep end of employment just yet. Really, I would like to work on Saturday and Sunday and leave the week open to pursue training to become a Certified Drug and Alcohol Counselor through Delaware’s Department of Vocational Rehabilitation. Once I get this certification, I can go to work in the mental health field. Once I get into that field, I can take advantage of employer-sponsored training and career development, possibly getting them to pay for a master’s degree in social work.
Furthering my education will only be possible if I can continue to manage my mental health symptoms and a large part of managing them comes from actively maintaining the routine that I have created for myself. I re-learned first-hand yesterday how it feels to purposely deviate from my routine and it does not feel good. So today I will not make that same mistake.