I was originally scheduled to complete the partial program on Wednesday, June 2nd but it was pushed out to Thursday, June 3rd because a slight medicine change was made. I was waking up in the morning feeling really groggy so the psychiatric nurse practitioner and I felt that it is possible that I am taking a bit too much medicine at night. Thus, we eliminated the Remeron at night so now I will only be taking Doxepine and Trazodone for sleep and Prazosin for nightmares. It is probably a good idea to eliminate Remeron because of the weight gain effect.
The professionals at the program simply want to see that I get two good nights of sleep and then they feel good about discharging me. What’s one more day anyway? The way I see it as I get two more free breakfasts and lunches. I have to make Thursday the last day anyway because I am helping my friend move from New Orleans to Tampa.
Adding an extra day also works out because I didn’t want a full day of down time and a drastic change in my routine between the end of the partial program and the Friday flight to New Orleans. I think the psych nurse practitioner agreed with my thinking because he approved the extra day.
The program today had a great lecture of generalized anxiety disorder and I could really identify with one part in particular. I guess I tend to catastrophize things and tend to look on the negative side of potential outcomes. It is important to recognize this tendency and look at the facts of the situation instead of relying on the feelings. Folks in the mental illness community should not rely solely on feelings. Facts are almost more important.