So I’ve now crossed the threshold of 5 weeks of Cisco Certified Network Associate class and I am pissed off and tired. It’s making me rethink wanting to get back into Information Technology altogether. The entire process is dredging up old grievances and memories of utter dissatisfaction of the industry as being stodgy and unwilling to experiment and take risks. Most IT professionals are disgustingly conservative and if the technology doesn’t have the keywords Cisco, Microsoft, Oracle, etc. then it can be just thrown in the non-consideration pile.
I know I do not want to go back to working in industry with all of their “metrics” and other utter rubbish that the pointy-haired bosses dream up. I wonder right now if I didn’t look at this through rosier colored glasses than what is actual reality. I remember all of the ass-kissing that I had to do and telling people what they want to hear even though it grated at my nerve endings. Right now the best I can hope for is a state or maybe even some form of federal job. But even those jobs are hard to come by and they can be worse in the stodginess department; impossible as it might seem.
I thought I wanted to teach networking to people and I guess I was wrong because I am not actually teaching them networking. It’s more like indoctrinating them into the Cisco, Oracle, Microsoft, Amazon, Google way of thinking. It’s not teaching so much as preparing them to be corporate-mindshare automatons. Gone are the days of experimenting and learning for the pure sake of learning. As a teacher in this field, I would basically be forced to become an uncompensated sales person for the industry fucksticks.
I like and respect my CCNA instructor as a person and a technically competent professional but he basically comes off as a shill for Cisco, Amazon, and Google. He’s basically trying to sell us all on cloud, cloud, cloud. If I did not know better, I would think he’s a pre-sales engineer of some sort. Fuck the cloud! I hate the goddamned cloud. You give up control of your data to some faceless, corporate, bureaucratic behemoth with name recognition. As the PHB would say, “But …. but …. it’s in the cloud.”
Basically I wasted a precious Saturday studying from Pass Leader and I am still managing to fail the fucking exam. The exam stresses speed and accuracy. In industry, speed often means more mistakes and longer down times. Careful thought is always in order. I am left wondering whether this is even worth it. Maybe it really is better working some low-end, go nowhere job then putting up with this kind of bullshit. Thankfully, this is mostly an American attitude. IT in Europe is much less stodgy and more open to innovative thinking. There are entire ISPs that don’t use Cisco. There’s one in Germany that is entirely powered by OpenBSD.
Okay, rant over. It’s time for this kitty to take a nap.