Even though I know that the first day of my new job is still 5 full days away, I am really nervous about starting working again. I’ve been out of work so long that I just hope I can hold it together. The initial excitement of getting hired has faded into anxiety. I’ve been out of work completely for two full years. I notice that as I age, my adaptability and flexibility lessens by quite a bit. I had high hopes of getting back into Information Technology and they have been basically dashed.
At least security is a relatively easy field to be in and usually not terribly stressful. I think I am more nervous about the driving aspect of my new job as an armored car guard. It’s been a bit of time since I’ve driven a large, heavy vehicle so I am a bit on edge about that but I think after a couple of hours, I’ll relax and be in the swing of things. I know that on my first day, it will basically be orientation and paperwork. I won’t be going out on the road as a driver until I have a uniform. And even then, I will only be driving because I don’t have the armed security license in my state.
I do know that the trucks are operated on a two person team. One drives and the other picks up and drops off currency and valuables. I just hope that I can be a good enough driver and remember the techniques for operating the larger vehicles. I have my Class A CDL and have driven tractor trailers so this won’t be anything close to that kind of operation. I even think that my local branch does not operate commercial class vehicles regularly as most of the trucks look like they’re under 26,000 pounds. But I did see a few of the larger, heavier variety and they’re clearly marked with a gross vehicle weight greater than 26,000.
I simply hope not to be thrust into the mix and allowed some time to ease in. When I was younger, it was so much easier to be thrust in to the mix and hit the ground running. Of course, then I didn’t have the employment gap that I have now. My aim is really not to necessarily like the job but to be able to tolerate it. I have purposely set the bar kind of low so as not to add additional stress.
I know the prevailing advice is to try and relax and take it one day at a time or even hour to hour if need be. The folks training as Navy SEALs that are successful, just look at their training hour to hour. It helps them from becoming psychologically overwhelmed. That would probably be what I need to do as well. My family was concerned about the firearms portion of the job. Ironically, this is the least of my concern because I have had a decent amount of training and feel comfortable. The easiest part of the job will be qualifying with a pistol.
The hardest part of the whole affair will be learning the routes and the procedures. That has me in a tizzy. My sense of direction is generally good and I know I am a good driver. I just don’t do well with people screaming and yelling so I hope whomever my trainer is will keep fairly chilled. They won’t have to worry about my driving skills.