I sit here at Dunkin Donuts sipping an iced coffee, eating a bagel, and pondering what my next move in life is going to be. I guess the answer is that I have absolutely no idea. Instead I have crippling depression that is keeping me from doing anything really productive other than spinning my wheels. Well, at least I am able to do some learning which provides a temporary reprieve. I was hoping that the learning that I am doing would translate into employment that would keep my head above grinding poverty but no such luck.
At this point, I wonder if I am even employable at all. I am left wondering if I have any meaningful skills at all. I guess only time will tell but time is quickly running its course. The longer I spend out of the workforce, the harder it becomes to even land a basic job. I do not even really know what it is that I would like to do. I think it might be a good idea just to look into being a security guard on the second shift somewhere. At the very least it would be easy, doable work. I might even be able to work at a mall somewhere.
I know that it would be a bad idea for me to work in food service so I have pretty much nixed that. Maybe I could do something in catering on the weekends. On the other hand, maybe not. I think security work would probably be for the best. It is easy and mostly very low stress. I guess at this stage in the game it’s better than nothing at all.