Despite having my hopes to get back into a career in information technology basically dashed, I am starting to feel better and maybe starting to accept my reality of menial employment. It does not mean that I am happy about my circumstances, it just means that perhaps I’ve found some peace in the acceptance. I no longer blame myself for my own circumstances. As trite as the saying, “It is what it is” is, there is something to be said for feeling like I can produce something.
A psychologist whom I have great respect for once told me that men are wired by evolution to be producers and that we are happiest when we can gainfully produce something and be proud of our successful efforts. In my case, simply getting back to work is producing some kind of value. If you take the fact that the value is being stripped away due to unbridled capitalism and just merely work for your own selfish reasons, there is some good in it. I have spent the last several years unemployed and it definitely contributed to my lack of self worth.
I do not even feel that I need to like my new job and have set the bar to tolerance of it. Tolerance of the work will go a long way as I do not want to hate the job. If I find myself hating the job, it will be time to look for alternative means of earning. For now, the work is honest and the pay will trickle in every two weeks. And my office will be an armored truck. I guess things could always be worse.
Once I see some success in my new role, I want to start thinking about dating again. I can imagine dating will be somewhat challenging because of my job in Security. There is that stereotype of people working in Security as lazy, stupid, ineffectual, or both. Nothing could be further from the truth. Of course all professions have their less competent members, but for the most part, I see the good.
So for now, I will not be marooned to a desk or an office. My office will be my armored truck. The work will be mundane and mostly routine as there is an average of only 60 armored car holdups per year. When you look at the population size, it’s so very small. The risk might increase some during the holiday season when larger amounts of valuables are transported, but all in all, it’s just a pickup and delivery job.