Ms. Tangie from my partial hospitalization program has encouraged us to make use of this tool when we are unable to go see a therapist. It helps us to get thoughts that ruminate in our heads to stop. Right now my thoughts are on my last day of the program which will be this Wednesday, January 20th. Not a small part of me is concerned that the routines that I am beginning to establish might fall apart or I might slip. I am also concerned about sudden loneliness. One of the great benefits of the program is some much needed socialization and being around fellow people with mental illness.
I did get a lot done yesterday and my apartment is now cleaner than it was. I have been good about using the smartphone app to come up with a list of things I want to do. It is amazing how good it feels to actually see things get checked off of this list; much better than trying to make a mental picture. Now that I have incorporated some daily blogging, I want to incorporate a daily meditation session and shall begin this today. In fact that is the one important goal for the day. If I do not get anything else achieved, then I achieve one step towards spiritual wellness.
Sleep continues to be a challenge so I hope that daily meditation and daily blogging might help rebuild broken pathways to sleep enhancement. My mood is good though and I feel a sense of hope for a brighter future that I have not felt in some time. So far I am passing the weekend test with flying colors. Sometimes the weekend is worrisome because it is a test of ability to create a routine when a regular one gets interrupted. So far, with the assistance of my smartphone, I did manage to make my Saturday pretty full and I shall see how my Sunday fairs.
I am looking forward to Monday morning and the resumption of the partial hospitalization program. I will be sad that two of my favorite fellow patients will be graduating. One of them has turned into a friend and I believe we will stay in touch. Tuesday I have an appointment with Dr. Sharma, my psychiatrist. I need to keep this appointment because my doctor needs to be made aware of the addition of Latuda to the regimen. Latuda has been a wonderful extra booster to both Cymbalta and Remeron.
I do not necessarily like having to be on three different medications to manage my mental illness but there is no denying that they make it easier to do the things that I need to do to be successful in self care. I remember these lines from one the the Behavioral Health Specialists at Christiana Care. He says these are the most common causes of relapse in mental health.
- Patients are most often in a hurry to recover.
- Patients fail to follow their prescribed regimen.