{"id":162,"date":"2026-02-02T10:19:12","date_gmt":"2026-02-02T15:19:12","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/goblackcat.com\/?p=162"},"modified":"2026-02-02T10:19:12","modified_gmt":"2026-02-02T15:19:12","slug":"not-feeling-so-great","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/goblackcat.com\/wordpress\/2026\/02\/02\/not-feeling-so-great\/","title":{"rendered":"Not Feeling So Great"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I\u2019m about to usher in another challenging week trying to negotiate and mental and physical hellscape that is the United States. I\u2019m now waffling between Uber and upgrading my security license. I cannot make a choice that doesn\u2019t feel like an all-encumbering decision. Perhaps I would do simply better not to fight it and just let the phase pass. There are some things to fight and coping skills are not working now. So I may have to simply ride the unpleasantness. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I want to relax today but knowing I have to work at my security job tomorrow ruins everything. I just feel like being stupid and worthless and I feel like I\u2019ll be okay with that for today. After all, tomorrow, Thursday, and Friday are going to be painful. I wish life would get easier but it\u2019s not. It\u2019s getting sadder. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">The bright spark is Denisse. Without her I don\u2019t know where I would be. This is going to be short because the day will not be easy. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I\u2019m about to usher in another challenging week trying to negotiate and mental and physical hellscape that is the United States. I\u2019m now waffling between Uber and upgrading my security license. I cannot make a choice that doesn\u2019t feel like an all-encumbering decision. Perhaps I would do simply better not to fight it and just [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[2],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-162","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-mental-health"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/goblackcat.com\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/162","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/goblackcat.com\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/goblackcat.com\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/goblackcat.com\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/goblackcat.com\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=162"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/goblackcat.com\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/162\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/goblackcat.com\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=162"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/goblackcat.com\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=162"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/goblackcat.com\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=162"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}