Despite the sun shinning I am feeling very gloomy. I had a quick conversation with my brother and learned that my mom is not doing well. Her Alzheimer’s has progressed to the point where it is neither safe nor advisable for her to be alone. She needs round-the-clock care and it’s sad because she is such a good and beautiful soul. She’s done a lot of good in her life and does not deserve this kind of ending. I am angry that nothing bad happens to the Trumps, Musks, and Mike Johnsons of the world. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I am trying to accomplish a few things today but struggling because I feel so sad and down about the entire state of the world. I really want to run and hide; to become a child again. I feel like I never made the transition to adulthood very well. My feeling is not incorrect because I did not, in effect, make the transition. I am struggling to understand what is being thrown at me right now. I am overstimulated, reached the point of exhaustion, and left with grasping at straws to create some kind of life.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I hope that maybe the day will get better and happier somehow. I know I’ve a couple of stops to make on the way home. I don’t really mind though. I need to pick up some champagne for tonight for Valentines Day. I also want to see if Walgreens has some things that I need. Spending today with my beloved Denisse should be good. She’s a wonderful person; my angel sent to watch over me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
At least I got some thoughts out of my head that were swirling around. That always helps. I did get my small business virtual server set up. The operating system I should say is setup. I still need to move emails and files to it but I\u2019ll get there. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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