I had grand plans for today but it\u2019s just not going to happen. I\u2019m tired from a week\u2019s worth of caregiving to my elderly mother whom has advanced Alzheimer\u2019s and the beginnings of dementia. Caregiving is mentally and emotionally exhausting. It\u2019s hard seeing my mom decline in health as she is very precious to me. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Yesterday was particularly difficult for me and I was grateful to have Denisse come with me. It even brightened, albeit briefly, my mom\u2019s spirits. My mom had a moment where she did not recognize me and thought I was about to do her harm. That affected me deeply as I know that it\u2019s not her true thinking. I know Alzheimer\u2019s can cause dementia and paranoia.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
My mother is a woman ahead of her time. She has two master\u2019s degrees: one in history and another in mathematics. Her mentor for her history degree felt her thesis was dissertation quality so he had it published under her name. Her thesis was about the Salem Witch Trials and is available in the University of Pennsylvania archives. At that time, it was unheard of for a woman with only a master\u2019s degree to have something so worthy of publication. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
So in essence, and at the sagely advice of Denisse, I\u2019m beginning the process of mourning now so that when my mom is ready to die, I shall celebrate her life and mourn her passing. I think ultimately that this advice will make the entire process easier to progress through.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The bottom line is that I am spent and need a day of watching movies with my special Denisse. Productivity will have to wait until tomorrow. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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