The title sums up exactly how I am feeling right now. I didn\u2019t feel this bad this morning. I\u2019m overwhelmed by life right now. I\u2019m fighting this feeling of sadness, anxiety, and hopelessness. I think the recent news about the bombing of Iran, the forced prayer of the troops, and the increasing difficulty of simply existing are coming to a head. I don\u2019t know what a correct perspective is anymore. I feel the impending sense of doom strongly. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
It\u2019s almost like why should I even try anymore? What\u2019s the use if we are all just heading towards Armageddon and evangelicals support Trump\u2019s push towards destruction? Gas prices have now made it a bad idea to drive for Uber because you can guarantee Uber\u2019s payouts aren\u2019t increasing. I don\u2019t understand the insatiable greed and selfishness. Trump is bringing out the very worst in people by emboldening and enabling the bad behavior. I see it at all levels of society. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I just don\u2019t see things improving at all short of a revolution; complete revolution from the bottom up. The problem is we are so divided into so many different factions that civil war would be immensely destructive and costly. I wish for revolution badly because we need it. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I\u2019m even feeling like a failure and only a dreamer. Unironically, I had a psychopath for a 5th grade teacher that basically levied that accusation against me. Dreaming is what kept me alive throughout the many miserable years I\u2019ve had. Now I see that there may be folly in dreaming. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Maybe the teachers I had in grade school were not wrong when they said I would ultimately be a failure. Maybe their predictions were not so far off. Not all of this is me mind you. Society has special hatred and intolerance for people with disabilities. Now even the quiet part <\/em>is being said out loud. When does the government come to imprison me based on eugenics? <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" The title sums up exactly how I am feeling right now. I didn\u2019t feel this bad this morning. I\u2019m overwhelmed by life right now. I\u2019m fighting this feeling of sadness, anxiety, and hopelessness. I think the recent news about the bombing of Iran, the forced prayer of the troops, and the increasing difficulty of simply […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[2],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-275","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-mental-health"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/goblackcat.com\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/275","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/goblackcat.com\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/goblackcat.com\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/goblackcat.com\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/goblackcat.com\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=275"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/goblackcat.com\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/275\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/goblackcat.com\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=275"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/goblackcat.com\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=275"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/goblackcat.com\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=275"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}