I do not have a whole lot going on today. Originally, Denisse and I were going to see Project Hail Mary but I don’t think we will make it. Denisse had a fall last night and probably bruised her tail bone. This would make things really uncomfortable. I know when I am hurting I want to stay home. If she does not want to go out, then I will happily take care of her.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I don’t particularly feel motivated to do anything. Last week was a long one and I am tired. I’d be just as content to having a lazy recovery day. While I am conflicted and do not exactly want to waste the day, I know giving my brain some rest would be good. I was in really rare form last night being both tired and pissed off at the world.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Anger takes a lot out of me and I just had this insight as I am writing this blog entry. Anger, despite helping me to prevent a depressed state, is exhausting and all-consuming. I want to make more headway on my business but it’s not going to happen today. Despite knowing rationally that I am headed towards a wasted day, I realize that forcing my brain to work on the business idea will not be fruitful. In the end, it could make me angrier and more bitter. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I am content to have a day where I surrender myself to mindful entertainment. I will keep my phone in a different room so I am not tempted to pick it up and engage on trivial matters on social media. Today, I want to appreciate the simple pleasures like spending time with the love of my life and maybe a little THC tonight. I may skip the THC though because it honestly makes me “stoopid” the next day.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
This morning I am really writing from a stream of consciousness. I want to get back to unguided meditation as a form of relief from anxiety and depression because it is a healthier coping skill than use of substances. The results from meditation provide tangible relief from depression, anxiety, and anger without making me feel dopey. Conversely, I feel clearer and more focused after a good and long meditation session. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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