On Tuesday I was admitted to the hospital. Thankfully I did not have a stroke like the doctors suspected. I am however dizzy and tired all the time. I don\u2019t know what the cause of this is and it is concerning. I was just too tired and foggy to blog yesterday. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
At any rate, I\u2019m going to need a cane all of the time now for safety reasons. Aging can be difficult. But I must learn to accept this instead of feeling remorse for missed opportunities and connections. I actually have a good future ahead of my doctors can figure out what\u2019s going on. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
It looks like business plans will need to be put on hold for a bit while I figure things out. I\u2019ve been in a brain fog for the past two days. I hope I\u2019ll be ready to go today. I miss my love and my bed. Maybe all this happening this week is changing my priorities. Maybe it\u2019s okay to simply live basically. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I feel strangely without much emotion right now. I feel like I\u2019m existing but quietly. It\u2019s difficult to explain. I miss my computers and my home lab. It\u2019s so much fun to experiment with Linux and BSD. I miss that kind of fun right now. It\u2019s fulfilling fun. \ud83e\udd13 <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nobody really knows what the future holds but I hope things will get better than they are now. This year has started out difficult. It hasn\u2019t been easy psychologically or medically for that matter. I guess I\u2019m fine using a cane all or most of the time. Acceptance can be a good thing. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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