I\u2019m so nervous that I am sick to my stomach. I barely slept last night. That\u2019s just how much like rubbish I feel. I am headed in to my four hour shift at OPS and then it will be time to start my Uber adventures. If I am to be honest, I\u2019m completely unprepared to be doing this. I do not even have a dash cam. I just hope I can make it through this first week and make a profit. That would be ideal. I don\u2019t know if it will be possible but I will sure try. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I probably need to eat something to settle my stomach but I don\u2019t know if I can. When I was younger, I could honestly handle change a lot better. Nowadays, not so much. This is appreciably hard. I\u2019m tired and all torqued up at the same time. It\u2019s a very uncomfortable feeling. Maybe I will feel better once I get started and I get a few rides accomplished under my belt. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I have to remember to be polite and not make unwanted conversation. As someone who is autistic, I suck at \u201creading the room.\u201d If the rider wants to make conversation, I am happy to do so, I just probably will not initiate it. As much as I tell myself ratings don\u2019t matter, they kind of do. They have an effect on earnings and trip preference. That\u2019s another reason why I am nervous. I just know that it’s going to take several trips before I feel comfortable and get into a rhythm.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
What makes this especially hard is that I will be effectively working 2 almost full time jobs to make ends meet. I hope that Denisse will not have too much trouble finding work after school gets done in 2 months or so. By then, I won’t have much gas left in the tank. I just hope that this is a folly and that I didn’t fall for it.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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