I don\u2019t know why but I\u2019m exceptionally angry this evening so I\u2019m doing some additional writing to externalize the thoughts. I feel like a victim and I\u2019m simultaneously angry and depressed about this. I feel like no matter what I do I just get knocked around by life. I had my hours cut at work and I\u2019m wondering what will be next. I feel like I\u2019m being exploited as I\u2019m being paid a whopping $17 per hour. This is two dollars an hour over minimum wage in a medium cost of living area. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
The conservatives would tell me to get another job while they\u2019re stealing money left and right with a cigar hanging out of their mouths and sipping on expensive liquor that I\u2019ll never afford. I don\u2019t know if this is capitalism, corruption, or both. I personally think America is too late to be saved. Tomorrow I go to work to earn the miserly sum of money. I\u2019m nothing more than a whore for my employer. I have a fully incorporated pimp. The irony is not lost on me. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I\u2019m tired but sleep does not restore me. My two hobbies no longer give me satisfaction. I feel like a machine of anger and despair. I\u2019m too chicken to off myself. I\u2019m also chicken for wanting to go to sleep and not wake up. I don\u2019t see a path forward. Today I lost sight of living for today. Perhaps I will regain this tomorrow. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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