I cannot believe how fast August (and really the summer) went. September is here and the next few months are going to be rather busy. I wish I could shake this gut feeling that I have that things are going to go very sideways. Throughout my life I have learned to trust my gut instinct and my gut is giving me a “Danger Will Robinson” alert. I don’t really know why and it is alarming. I am trying to ignore it because the anxiety is most likely needless at this point.
I’ve started using Delta 9 THC blend twice a week because it is helping me in ways that my antidepressants and Buspirone alone are not. Now I am in panic mode about my internship’s possibility of requiring a drug screen. If they do, I am going to be royally screwed. Well, there is really no sense now in panicking. I will just be honest and take it as it comes; being an adult about it. Honesty and forthrightness is always the best course of action.
I know that I am going to need to carefully manage my time going forward. The semester feels really short and I have a lot of work to do. So much so that every day is precious and time cannot be wasted. I want that 4.0 GPA and I am going to shoot for the moon. I know that I need a 3.0 GPA in order to maintain my scholarship, but that won’t do for my goals. I want that 4.0 so badly I can see it. I can see my name on that Dean’s List.
I also think for my mental health it is important that I take time for my hobbies. I see the importance of that now so I am going to build in time for those hobbies in to my week. Even if it is just 2-4 hours maximum, it will do wonders. I am happy that I’ve had this long weekend to relax a bit and get some extra sleep to recoup a bit. I am also happy that I have some time off of work until Sept. 13th and 14th.
The one thing I can say is that I am happy I chose the University of Delaware to pursue my Masters in Social Work. The professors in the program are really understanding and compassionate people. I just get a good vibe all around from the university. I am happy to call myself a Blue Hen. 😁