I had another difficult night sleep-wise. I think I need to get some more melatonin because that supplement worked very well. I will pick up some this weekend. When I woke up, I discovered my mom had tried to call me several times. My mom is now situated in her apartment at the memory care program. I am truly worried for her because she definitely has sundowning syndrome as it seems her symptoms are worse at night. I will give mom a call later today.
I don’t really want to go to work this afternoon but I need the money. I need more money coming in the door so I can afford to keep Denisse and I afloat. I want Denisse to have some nice small luxuries so I will have to work (unfortunately) harder. I am not a fan of hard work but one of smart work. Working hard isn’t necessarily smart. Smart work is finding the means to be more efficient with my time.
I am not adverse to working long hours though. I would just like my efforts to be more personally beneficial. The only way to make this happen though is to work towards ownership. When one has ownership of the means, they ultimately earn more money and do it smartly. Unless one is at the executive level of a company, they are just a mere cog in the machine having to accept scraps of money for work performed.
Personally, I am absolutely tired of being impoverished in a country that punishes poverty. It takes 2-3x longer to get basic needs taken care of. Trips to doctor’s appointments and the grocery store end up taking half of the usable day. My exit strategy is all about starting and running my own business. I want more of my time to directly benefit me.
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