I just feel like crying right now and I’m fighting back the tears. It was quite a blow having to drop out of practicum and having this health issue so early in my grad school career. I tried to get some work done today but was unsuccessful. I was just too distracted and the efforts at trying to focus simply tired me out.
I gave up for the moment and got on the bus to head home. I’m going to take a nap and see if that will help any. Sleep isn’t a cure for depression for me but maybe the physical symptoms might abate enough for me to get some work done on this paper. My therapist would advise setting a SMART goal: Specific, Measurable, Achievable, Realistic, and Timely. So my goal for tonight is to correct the APA formatting, fix the grammar, and spend no more than 1.5 hours total tonight. I’ll set an alarm to make sure that I do not exceed that.
I think this should leave me feeling like I’ll be in a better place. Then I can do the final touch ups tomorrow during the day and turn it in before class and be reasonably confident that I’ve turned in something of good quality. Setting that smart goal made me feel better and less adrift. Nevertheless, I am physically tired and need a nap.
I’m going to have to take this MSW program one challenge at a time and to remember to stay in the present. I can manage this. Staying in the present will help me to be successful. I will break this down to one surmountable challenge at a time.