I’m feeling really stupid now. I made so many mistakes and I’m paying the piper for them. I thought I hated my career in IT. It turns out that I really didn’t really hate my IT career in the way I thought I did. I think I just hate Windows more and hated everything to do with Windows. I wish I had specialized when I had the opportunity to do so. I wish I had taken the advice I was offered. I would have gotten the Red Hat Enterprise Linux certifications and tried to find work.
Well, it’s far too late now. I’m old and age discrimination is a real thing in IT. That and the present job market in technology is awful. Experienced and certified professionals with advanced college degrees are struggling to find work at their level. They cannot even find low level help desk jobs that they’re overqualified for. So yeah, I’m feeling really down in the dumps.
I’m far better at Linux than I ever was at Windows because I have a strong interest in the software. Linux fascinates me in a way that Windows never will. If only I could rewind my life 10-12 years and actively pursue Linux as a career. But I can’t and the ship has sailed.
I hope that I’ve made the right decision to become a therapist. But only time will really tell. I think I have and a few other folks believe so. I guess I’ll just keep on using Linux as a hobby. Maybe that’ll provide enjoyment. I just hate that I’m starting over yet again. Starting over at 48 is not easy. It’s hard. It’s challenging.
I’m trying not to beat up on myself but it’s hard. If I were experienced in Linux, I could’ve been making some serious money right now. But who knows…I could be unemployed too.