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My Mental Health Journey

  • It’s Double Shift Sunday

    Yes, double shift Sunday has arrived and I don’t know how I am going to make it through when I lack motivation. I really could care less about the job and the people here. As they say, my give a damn is busted. Fortunately, I have some nice irons in the fire and some good opportunities on the horizon.

    I think I will just do the very bare minimum necessary today. At least it’s supposed to rain all day so people will mostly remain indoors and that means less work all around.

    I am looking forward to Thursday when I go to get my hearing aids. It will be so much better to be able to hear people with significantly less difficulty. That alone. I’m grateful to my Vocational Rehabilitation counselor, Becca, for all she has done for me. Becca is amazing and I have to tell her manager how much I appreciate her. Fortunately, her manager is really decent guy and not self-serving at all so he will make certain to convey the kudos.

    I really need these next 90 days to go as fast as possible because I want to start my MSW program. I’m excited about the world of social work and starting to help better people’s lives. I’m chomping at the bit to get going. It will be great to be in an academic environment again and to have my brain formally engaged and challenged.

    I’m also happy that the practicum won’t be a full time job. It will be immersive and a good experience but much more manageable. This means I’ve got Tuesdays and Thursdays to really dedicate to studying. I can take the bus to the University of Delaware early and hit the library for some productive study time.

    For the time being though, I am hoping this opportunity comes through for part time work that gets me away from security and into something better for me. I should know more within a few days. Those who know me, know that I am an atheist and therefore not a praying man but I am saying a little prayer for The Heartlight Foundation to get its grant. I love what they do!

    The Heartlight Foundation is a new non-profit that is helping people find good, meaningful jobs. I like the founders so much that I am going to do some free CIO work for them. I also think that they’re going to invite me to be a board member. It won’t pay anything but the experience will be invaluable.

    I’m going to learn to network and build good relationships. As distasteful as this is, I am going to start a LinkedIn profile as I need some professional presence. I even got AI to do up a pretty damn good headshot.