My favorite holiday of the year has finally arrived: Halloween. I am super happy today because this day represents a day when nothing bad or traumatic has ever happened to me. Well, maybe that’s not quite true because I just had a memory of something bad that happened to me when I was in 5th grade in school for Halloween. But the cool thing is that this is the first time that I’ve thought about it since I was a child so I am glad it really didn’t shape me. Teachers can be emotionally and psychologically abusive, perhaps even enjoying it. I had one of those types and karma bit her hard. I learned later that she died from cancer. I took no small amount of schadenfreude in this because she seemed to take particular delight in being verbally and psychologically abusive to me. Her comeuppance relieved the trauma from that year.
But anyhow, I am not writing to feel upset today. I am writing out of excitement for the fun and innocence that Halloween brings. I am looking forward to operating the candy slingshot with my best friend and being with my new and beautiful fiancee. Halloween is always a long day because of all of the running around we have to do in preparation for nightfall but I’ve never really minded at all. This year in particular the day will be longer.
I am starting to feel physically even better now that it looks like the diabetes oral med that I am taking, Actos, has started to work. I’m noticing that my numbers are looking a lot better now. I had my first true sugar low last night when my number fell below 60. I have to bring this up to my care team because it might now be time to lower the amount of insulin that I am taking. After I finish my blog entry I will send a message out to them and ask if I should be taking less.
I still wish I didn’t need a cane but the diabetic neuropathy has progressed to that point. Perhaps, I will one day be able to give up the cane, but for now, I will use it because I cannot risk a fall being on Warfarin. A fall could have very serious consequences. I don’t know that I have much more to really say or write today.