Black Cat Blog

My Mental Health Journey

  • Sometimes Ignorance Is Best

    With all of the depressing news out there in the world, sometimes I think ignorance is best. I just don’t want to learn anymore but I know that ignorance will make the problem worse. I hopped on to Mastodon this evening to catch up and see what my cyberfriends are up to and I read about what Trump and his cronies are up to and I just get saddened. I know I need to be informed about what is going on in the world. But I just don’t know where to begin fighting.

    I had a rather productive day and got a lot accomplished. I set up a small virtual machine within my server specifically for my business. I set it up to have 2 vCPUs, 4GB of RAM, and 120GB HD. That should be plenty to get me started. The only thing I have to do really is to implement DKIM signing and anti-spam measures and the email sending will be good to go. Right now, I can at least receive mail on my business email address. That’s good enough for today. I did set up WordPress for the skeleton of the website and Nextcloud for the file storage particulars.

    This evening there is a live comedy event on YouTube that my good friend told me about. My girlfriend and I are going to check it out this evening at 8 to see if it’s worthwhile. I’m going to have wake up at the ass crack of dawn tomorrow because I have a double shift at work. I hate working 16 hours but I need the money and I told my boss I’d do it. I wish I had not agreed to it because it’s always a one way street with employers. They take, take, take and never give anything back when you need something.

    Today I also had to spend 89 bucks on a medication refill because Walgreens decided they wouldn’t take GoodRx because I have prescription insurance on file. Walgreens is just a greedy corporation. They said it is “corporate policy” but really they wanted 89 bucks over the GoodRx 36.99 price. But all those greedy fucks do is apologize while laughing because they have a monopoly in my area. Their store looks so ghetto. When you walk in, the floor buckles and you feel like you could fall to your death. Don’t get me going any further …. I guess I could have gone to Walmart but that would have been an hour bus trip, pick up the prescription, wait 30-40 minutes for the return bus, then an hour trip back. Still I think I should have done that. The savings would have been worthwhile.

    I forgot to give Uber a call and see what they need from me to become approved as a driver. Damnit! I’d meant to do that. I was so exhausted from getting angry about being forced to spent almost a hundred bucks for generic Ambien that, when I got home, I crashed hard and took a nap. That will be on the to-do list for Monday morning. I have to work Monday afternoon from 3-11.