I’m still trying to master the art of navigating my environment. It’s just going to take time. Since I am now walking with a cane, I actually have to remind myself to synchronize the cane extension with my left foot moving. One of my particular autism issues is visual spatially related. Eventually this synchronization will happen naturally. I have to reprogram my brain.
I also have to get used to the world looking at me as disabled. High functioning autism is a hidden disability and I got used to passing largely as “normal.” There’s no way to hide walking with a cane or riding the “short bus.” I simply have to stop caring about what others see. I need this service so screw anybody that thinks otherwise.
Some humor for today: While I was in the hospital for medical issues, I unfortunately had a MAGAt for a roommate. He was insufferable! I finally told him to leave me the hell alone. Anyhow, on my last day in the hospital, I dropped a particularly rank deuce in the potty. As a man, I was proud of that one! When he went to use the potty, he yelled, “Fucking liberals always stink up the joint!” Despite myself I laughed hard which only fueled his rage. Thankfully, he just had back surgery so I was in no eminent danger. But I was damn proud of that one! Ha!
Well, it’s time for me to start my shift. I hope all goes smoothly.