Black Cat Blog

Thoughts, Stories, and Ideas

  • Reason to Smile

    After a shit day yesterday, I have a reason to smile this morning. After my 4 hour waste of time of a shift, I am headed to the Securitas office for their hiring event to hopefully get a job offer and ditch this miserable excuse for a company called Oracle Protective Services where I work at now. They hit my last straw on Sunday night where I was told I had to use my personal cell phone in performance of my duties and I get no reimbursement for that. Well, things are going to change.

    I know Securitas is what it is but they suck less than OPS. Hopefully they have something that is tolerable where I am not splitting my time between sites and constantly having my hours changed. Once my background check and drug test come back clean, I’m quitting OPS without notice because fuck the 2 week courtesy notice. Companies fire you without notice so turnabout is fair play. I just have to cross my fingers that all will be good.

    If all isn’t good, I have a backup option at VGM and it’s not a bad option either. It will be harder work and longer hours but at least I will be in the driver’s seat. That’s still a reason to smile. Man I hate America. This country is a shit hole country that saw fit to elect one of the worst of human scum and least fit to run a 7-Eleven, let alone a nation. I would leave ‘murica with my fiancee if we could afford to do so. Well, at any rate, I do hope today will be a better day.

    I really want to tell OPS to pound sand and I am hoping today will be the day. Yes, I do like my manager personally but this is business, not personal. I like him but I hate this cheap ass company that basically beats up its employees. Instead of paying us what we are worth, paying us weekly, and giving us reimbursements for using our personal devices to perform the duties of our jobs, they throw us a shiny object called Jolly. Jolly is some points system where we can earn points towards discounts. Problem: you need tens of thousands of points to make it worthwhile and you earn only 10 points at a time. It’s a fucking gimmick.

    But I am smiling because I think today will be the beginning of the end of my year long tenure at one of the worst places I’ve ever worked at – a big fucking joke that’s not even funny. I am done helping out OPS. I won’t even volunteer for extra shifts or anything of that nature. They can go to hell except for my manager. I genuinely wish him well. I’d like to see him look for better employment because he’s capable of so much more.

  • I’ve Learned Some Things

    Apparently I have learned some things about network bridging that I never knew and it improved my mood to the point where waking up after only 5 hours of effective sleep was not so bad. I had no idea how powerful a tool it could be. Since I actually woke up before my alarm I decided to try what I learned from ChatGPT, and lo and behold, it worked. And I know why. It’s important that I know why too.

    Well I’m going to work a short shift today. I’m not thrilled about it but I am not unhappy either. The work is easy though and not stressful. I’m hungry as hell right now and can’t wait for some food to come my way. I ordered some from DoorDash so I can eat. I need to start working on the Uber platform soon. It will be working 7 days a week and hurting badly.

    I can feel my good mood going away. I just feel tired and bitter. I don’t know why life must be so damned difficult. Learning is not even enough anymore.

  • Another Day At Work

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    It’s just another Sunday at work but I am not unhappy to be hear. I am going to be earning money at a site that I mostly like. It is very easy to work and I am alone in a locked building. I do not think that I can ask for more than that as a simple pleasure. The only problem was that this weekend I had to work an odd shift, 1625-2300. My boss’ boss wanted to avoid the overtime so he had the part-timer work a little more. I got screwed out of extra money. This made me a bit upset but I don’t really matter.

    The fact that my schedule is odd made transportation tough because of the bus schedule. In order to not risk being late and lose more money, I had to arrive almost two hours early and wait in the break room. At least I had my laptop to keep me busy and I could further research a home lab networking problem. As a result, I was able to solve the problem so when I get home, I can implement the solution at some point.

    But I have to work tomorrow morning from 0700-1100 so as soon as I get home, I am going to be in dead and drifting off to sleep. I really would like to have a couple of days off. I am tired and this is getting difficult. I did the math on the VGM driving opportunity and it does not look terrible, provided getting to and from the vehicle pickup site is not too expensive. This part will be a wait and see game.

    I am just too tired to continue to work on my book today. I am also thinking about my home lab. I really want to complete it so that it is up, running, and remotely accessible. I’d like to join mine with others’ labs to have fun and experiment.

  • Exhaustion

    I have hit the point of exhaustion where not even caffeine gives me a boost anymore. When I get home from work, I am going straight to bed where I hope to fall asleep and get as close to 6 hours as possible. Denisse and I have breakfast with mom at about 7:30. I plan on rolling out of bed at 7, taking my medicine, and then getting our ride to mom’s memory care facility squared away. I am looking forward to having a good breakfast, and spending time, with her.

    At my age and physical health, it is hard working 6-7 days a week but I kind of have to at the moment. It may only be temporary though. But temporary or not, it is still difficult. I am too tired to work on my home lab hobby at the moment. I was hoping to be far enough along that I could do a few things remotely but that will not happen. Sleep this evening will be far more important.

    I have lost interest in writing a book. I thought it would be fun but it turns out it is tedious. Well, maybe the approach I am taking is tedious. I haven’t been able to find dictation software for Linux so I’ve been stuck with actual writing and I find I prefer the dictation because it lets me get comfortable and pump out ideas from a stream of consciousness. I don’t know. Maybe the scope of the book has gotten out of hand and I am trying to appeal to too large an audience. I don’t really know. I know I am too tired to work on the book right now.

    I am too tired to think.

  • Another Rough Night

    I could say that the dreams were very intense last night. I mean so intense that I had night sweats. This seems to be happening more and more frequently. I awoke drenched in the middle of night. Why am I getting worse and not better!? I was positively clammy all over. I have to go in to work earlier today to cover for the supervisor because he will be in to overtime. I don’t mind doing a 10 hour shift because I need the money. I still don’t really want to go in but times being what they are …

    On the positive side of things, I did manage to write close to 800 words of my book last night. I don’t know whether or not I am pleased with the result, but the entire point is to put words to paper and I achieved that. If I can write or research some more today, I would feel like I accomplished something. I just wish I didn’t feel so down in the dumps and worthless despite getting something accomplished. I know this is the depressed mind talking and not reality.

    Despite having a rough night dream-wise, I do seem to be rested and ready for the day. I bought a 2nd network card for my Dell OptiPlex so that I can press it into service on a Proxmox VE virtualized OPNsense router. I want to really get my home lab up 100%. The Verizon-provided CR1000A router is a shitty one. I want some more features and more exciting stuff. This is all going to help tremendously with my book.