I’m a bit nervous this morning because I’m about to start a business and I’m scared of failure. This time I have no safety net and if this thing fails, it will end up being an immediate gut punch. I will still be working 2-3 days a week at my security job. I am going to try a few different things and see what ones work. I am thinking of going with either Avvira Enterprises or Avvira Global for the name but I am now leaning towards Avvira Global. It makes for a much shorter domain name and might look a little more avante garde. I think avviraglobal.com might look better than avviraenterprises.com. I kinda thought Avvira Enterprises looks fly-by-nightish whereas Avvira Global looks more serious.
The first venture I am going to try will be being a contractor for Uber. I have to have enough money to be able to rent a car. I think I will have enough money with the coming paycheck. I will rent the car and then try it for 2 weeks. If within 2 weeks’ time this looks like a fool’s errand, I will stop and look for a new idea. I know that I would like to try starting an Information Technology School that will teach certification classes. I may also try something like Uber Eats, GrubHub, or DoorDash. The gears are turning… I even thought about learning how to do remote bookkeeping as one potential idea.
I wonder if I could contract with the Delaware Department of Labor so that I could do the IT training. To raise money for this business activity, I could use some proceeds from participating in the gig economy to fund this. There are a couple of different avenues to pursue. I just hope that I will be able to continue to manage my depression and anxiety symptoms. I have a lot to do to keep me busy. I just have this innate fear of failure. In the past, I’ve failed at business three times. But all three times, I have several mistakes that I repeated:
- Mixed business and personal funds
- No business plan
- Untreated depression/anxiety
- Ideas solely related to IT managed services – This one in particular was not a good idea.
I also need to do some soul searching on how to organize/balance my life so all needs are taken care of. But I think before I do anything, I need to upgrade by security guard license to a red card which will allow me to be armed while on duty. Armed security licences are the gateway to more money. If I can get 2-3 days a week of guaranteed money from security, then I could potentially launch something. There’s still a lot to think about.
Unlike previous times, I am nervous and a bit frightened by this attempt. I was confident and even cocky about the three previous times and it got me nowhere. I think being more careful and taking the time to plan this out properly is the best course of action. For now, if I used one of the gig economy options to help launch and grow what I really hope to do would be the best course of action.
I also need to figure out what I am going to do for accounting and I think I am just going to use QuickBooks. However, ERPNext (Frappe) is also an option. Lots to do and lots to explore. For now, I am simply going to relax because I cannot make any moves until tomorrow and Saturday.