I am a bit late getting to blogging today as I slept deeply and later than usual. At the very least I feel very rested. I hope work goes okay today. Saturdays and Sundays I work the 3-11 shift and usually (knock on wood) nothing substantial happens. I am ready to try again on the web design. I have to get ideas and I need to figure out where to get these ideas from. I think looking at other websites doing the same thing that I plan on doing is a good idea.

I don’t particularly enjoy this kind of research as I usually end up overwhelmed by the sheer variety and I have difficulty making up my mind. These are totally new and uncharted territories for me. I don’t know about the different effects and their desirability. I wish I did not have such a mental block on this whole thing but I’ll ride over it.

In other news, I think I am going to save for an electric scooter to get me to and from work. The savings alone from using Lyft or Uber to get home from work will pay for itself in a month of usage. I don’t want to muck with gasoline or small engine maintenance and repair. A scooter is perfect. I can use it to get to and from the stores. An electric scooter would help.

I found one on Facebook Marketplace which is a really good candidate. I think I can get the guy down to 350.00 for it too. That would be very affordable and make transportation more feasible until I can get a car. I just came up with this idea today so I’ll spend some time researching this and see what options I have.

I have to work tonight from 3-11. For those who do not know, I work as a security guard. The site I work at is a city and county government building. I like the Saturday and Sunday 3-11 shift because I am in a locked down building. I have plenty of time to work on other things so I’ll take advantage of that.

I’m going to look for some web designs that I might like and try and modify them slightly; adopting them for my use. It’s going to be a purely educational night and I’m looking forward to the work. The plan is to figure out how to implement the design using Gutenberg.

The goal remains to have a minimally viable launch come April 15th. I have to remember that perfection is the enemy of progress. I also have to remember that good enough is perfectly acceptable here.

Hopefully I can get something up and solicit some useful feedback. There’s always going to be trolls that will tell flat out give their opinions instead of offering anything useful. I’ll ignore those.

Last night I was trying to be productive and work on a website for my business. What I thought would be a relatively easy and straightforward task turned out to be an undertaking. I have a new found respect for competent web designers. I tried to use AI to help and it was a disaster. ChatGPT and Claude are still curiosities at the moment.

So I need to take a step back and do some manual research. I have to look at other websites for ideas and examples. Then I have to figure out how the UI and UX experts implement something so eye pleasing and cohesive. My original goal was to have a minimally viable launch by April 15th and it might not happen. I’m still going to shoot for that however.

At least in this journey, I am learning how AI won’t fix a process that is broken. My current process is haphazard so I need to look at it more linear-logically versus circuitously. When it comes to design for electronic UI/UX, it can’t be done out of order. Since I cannot afford a web designer, maybe I need to look at something like Wix.

I am learning to utilize AI to help me design a website and it has been very helpful in doing so. I have the technology ability but I really don’t have design experience so I am creating this website in WordPress with the built-in Gutenberg editor. Say what you will about Gutenberg but it does lower the barriers of entry for entrepreneurs getting something up and going.

While using AI actively, I am learning how to ask questions and break down a process to small details. I am not asking AI to do everything for me. Instead I am using it to augment my own critical thinking and it’s actually helping me. ChatGPT has made recommendations for things like color palettes, design layouts, fonts, gradients, and more; ideas I would not necessarily come up with on my own.

I got it! AI is a great brainstorming tool. I balance using ChatGPT with a regular internet search engine. If I only know vaguely of what I want, ChatGPT makes the search more natural and human. If I know exactly what I want, I use an internet search engine to dial it in. Both tools help me to teach and better myself. Now that I have a strategy to build out a website, it’s only a matter of diggin in.

Tonight there should be plenty of time for me to make even more progress. I am looking forward to it.

Sometimes the best laid plans do not quite workout. I wanted to make progress on my website. Instead, I got distracted by an SSL error which was annoying. I still haven’t solved it for what that’s worth. Since I am doing development on my local machine, I don’t think I really need SSL anyways so I’ll just make it regular old HTTPS.

I will probably work more on my website this afternoon at my desk instead of my laptop. I don’t quite know what got completely fouled up and I don’t really care at the moment. I just want to make more progress.

With the help of “evil” AI, I have made some progress on the design of my business website. I have the typography, color palette, and a custom gradient defined. I’m happy that I accomplished this in an hour’s time. I joke about evil AI but it was so helpful in overcoming the mental block that I had.

I’ll continue my work on it bit by bit in fits and spurts. I’m going for a minimally viable launch at the moment. The work I did gives me some confidence that I can actually pull this off so I feel good. Oh and I forgot to mention that I started working on the site header. Watching things slowly coming together is encouraging.

I’ve discovered that I’m best in working with intensity in spurts. Since tomorrow is April 1st, I’m setting a goal of April 15th to have a minimally viable launch. That’s two weeks. I’m aiming to average 1-2 hours a day on it for the given time frame. I’m determined not to let perfect be the enemy of good/progress. It’s amazing how much can be completed in a good day.

I would like to see the header and footer come together in these next few days. That would make me feel even more encouraged.

I slept so well last night! I think it was legitimately because of a high dose of THC. I slept straight through the night. Everything feels so peaceful and relaxed. I know what I did was merely a bandaid for a gaping wound that major depressive disorder is but I needed relief. And I just realized that this is maladaptive. 😬

I really want to get more of the benefits of meditation so I don’t rely on substances. I know I have to walk very carefully here. I could use THC short term to help with some of the benefits of meditation. I know the ancients experimented with substances to augment or help people struggling with concentration.

I feel strangely motivated and positive today. It’s a good feeling. Since I feel motivated and I dare say creative, I will tackle some work on the website for my business. Even if I just work with AI to help get ideas, I’ll consider it a success. I don’t need a large bar to success here. I’ll be satisfied with any progress.

I need a day of rest today. I’m not exhausted but I am tired from working 40 hours in 4 days. I’m not really used to this so I need a recovery day. Concentration continues to be very difficult. I found myself whiling away the hours mindlessly on social media at work yesterday. It wasn’t the most productive day.

I’d like to get some work done tomorrow morning so I will do that. Time is going by fast and I don’t want a window of opportunity to close. I need at least a minimal launch of my website. I’m finding myself stuck in perfection being the enemy of progress.

I would like to at least get more organized about the process. Geesh! Here I am in a stuck state. I want to be kinder to myself. I’m so hard on myself that it is a progress blocker. My therapist would advise me to engage in some self praise; find the good inside and bring it out.

Today will be a self-care day. I will catch up on sleep and be ready for a productive morning tomorrow. I just realized that I have a discussion tool that I can use to “vibe out” a website design. I don’t really need AI to help me code out a website. I need help with the design. I know I’m getting into uncharted waters. This is where AI could help me flesh out things like layouts, color palettes, etc.

The trouble is that AI doesn’t feel natural to me yet. I have to think about how I can utilize the tool to achieve some results.

Another day and another security shift. But this one I don’t mind because it is 8 hours of peace and quiet. I only really have one duty which is to sit at the lobby security desk as the building is completely locked down. This will give me freedom and time to work on my business. It is a shame that I don’t really have the concentration to do much at the moment. That doesn’t mean things won’t change later though so I’ll ride it out.

Right now I feel like zoning out. It’s been a minute since I’ve put in a 40 hour work week at a job so I am feeling pretty tired. But I really don’t mind the site where I am at and the extra money is helpful. I know I want to be able to get a car of some sort again – even if it is a shit box on wheels. Ideally though, I am thinking of a Chevy Bolt EUV Premier. I don’t have to muck with things like gasoline or oil changes. The transmission on those things is a 1 speeder with forward, reverse, and park which means less to really fail.

At least the coming week won’t be quite as long as I will only be working for 32 hours. That should be more manageable and I will be getting paid this Friday. Pay day is almost always a good day. I say almost because of the amount of taxes being taken out of the pay check. It makes me grumble because the wealthy get away with paying a lot less than the working class do. The opposite should be true, but in ‘murica, that’s rarely the case.

I want to work on my business but it just isn’t going to happen at the moment. I need some more freaking sleep!

I really needed extra sleep today and it felt good to get some. I had an odd dream where I was watching tornadoes go by like a freight train. It wasn’t frightening however. It was kind of fascinating and beautiful. I also dreamt that the moon came out during one of the storms. Again, it was oddly peaceful.

I spent a good deal of time yesterday trying to understand why I could not, for the life of me, figure out why my self-signed security certificate did not work. I need an internal certificate authority for some apps never meant to be accessed externally. Well that problem was solved when I tried not specifying key usage on the authority certificate.

Now I’m ready to do some development work. I’ll be more in production mode today and less in troubleshooting. I have created a 10 year certificate authority and issued a whole bunch of certificates for various internal apps/processes.

I have officially reached the point of top geek for having my own internal authoritative DNS server and private certificate authority. It’s been kind of fun and a lot of learning.