I am actually finding myself not minding this Monday morning shift much as it is going to be relatively easy money. The hardest part of the whole affair is simply waking up early. I would like to spend some time this morning on brainstorming and market research. I want to get out of this hole that I am in so now is the time to work diligently and smartly. Sadly, discrimination at the age of 40+ is real. Thus, I don’t see myself ever getting back into technology as a W2 employee.
I will never get why there is such a presumption that the older worker is so incapable. What I can do is parlay my technology experience into a viable business that is mostly unrelated to technology. I don’t really want to do much in the way of technology consulting, yet I don’t want to limit myself either. I think I’d rather be a strategy consultant than in the troubleshooting role; the 30,000 foot view. I will play the role of virtual CIO if I offer anything in the technology realm altogether.
I am ambivalent about technology and it’s only really fun when I can do things like experiment. That was one of the reasons why I originally considered starting an IT training business. Now I remember why I nixed it …. I don’t really have the patience necessary to teach. It just dawned on me that I have failed to consider that I could always hire somebody to do the teaching. I could create the curriculum and do the 30,000 foot view.
Sometimes I wonder if being autistic gets in my way of coming up with ideas. I find myself getting mired in minutiae; almost like being fixated. I have to remind myself to look at the big picture almost constantly. So am I now back to considering teaching again!? My brain is all over the place right now. I want to pick a direction and go with it. I don’t even fully understand or remember why I nixed teaching. Aaarrrggghhh!
Too much to think about! 😆
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