Unfortunately, it looks like Uber is not going to be a sustainable business model for me. The payouts from rides have dropped while operating expenses are only going up. This makes renting a vehicle through Uber even riskier a proposition. So I came back to my security guard position when my manager let me know that he had Thursday and Friday evenings available again. It’s time to retool my thinking yet again.
I am fine with going back to work for the man while I let my brain process the ultimate direction that I want to head. I have an idea for a clothing and fashion line. This is the direction I ultimately want to go because I crave creativity and not just being a cog in the machine. This year has been very difficult for me so far and I realize I just need to slow down and not to expect freedom right away. I am fine brainstorming.
The one thing that I am somewhat unsure of is how to attack this goal. Does it make sense to try to start an unrelated business and use that as a launchpad for the goal? Does it make better sense to just work on the goal? There are pluses and minuses to both. Maybe I am grasping at straws and looking for the next (potentially) big idea? What if it turns out that I actually end up hating what I thought I’d love? These are all some things that I will need to explore in therapy.
I guess I wish my attention span were a bit better but it’s a known fact that depression can shorten it. Well as they say, one thing at a time. It just dawned on me that it would be beneficial to prioritize my goals, wants, and needs. This could help me organize and come up with a strategy. Perhaps in doing this, I may discover that professional independence trumps everything. If that is the case, then building any sustainable business becomes the priority. It’s a lot to process and reflect on.
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