I had one really long and vivid nightmare about being homeless. I don’t have much in the way of fear but my worst fear is actually homelessness. I fear that much more than even death. I think death would be preferable to homelessness for me. The dream was so vivid it included the sights, smells,…

So today I am even more frustrated because nothing seems to be working correctly and it’s spilling over into my feelings. It is like the ripples from tossing a stone in a pond. The whole affair began with the stupid fucking Lyft app not working properly. And of course it doesn’t work properly when I…

This afternoon I am feeling like an utter failure. I failed at life in America; failed at capitalism and failed at adulting. I really shouldn’t be feeling this way because I had a productive morning. I had my intake for Section 8 housing with NAMI so the wait is over for affordable housing. I guess…

I just had a memory from back on February 29th of this year. That was the day I was released from the hospital after my second stay in the behavioral health unit due to an active suicide attempt. I was sitting at my computer and just catching up on emails and other things that I…

This morning I went through a tiny adventure of having renamed my boot logical volume without updating the /etc/fstab file, and in the process, I broke my system and simultaneously figured out there are quite a few more things I had to do. So, if you ever want to rename a logical volume, here’s how…

I am so happy and relieved today because I got a call from NAMI with the good news that my number came up for subsidized housing. Also, the unit is in a nice suburban neighborhood and not the City of Wilmington which is also a nice added bonus. Since this is a program through both…

I have been thinking a lot about what a post-work society would look like. What would people do if they had a universal basic income. I know what I would do. I would pursue some passions of mine to help make society better. Personally, I think a lot of people would end up doing this.…

I want to begin this blog article by explaining that I’m estranged from my father. My father is responsible for much of my trauma. He caused me significant harm to the point where even seeing him can be triggering. Well, he called me and I answered without looking at the number. Hoo wee! What a…

As the title reads, I am angry and frustrated at the world. It all began with seeing all of these corporations advertising. I became finally sick and tired of corporations and the wealthy telling us how to think and feel. I’m over the audaciousness and presumptuousness of it all. I am sick of capitalism period.…

Today I am filled with absolute inertia to do anything. I have neither the will nor the energy to get anything done but I do want to blog about it to get the thoughts out of my head. I am beating myself up and feeling like a failure. I feel like I failed at life…