I think my mission for this afternoon is to finish my de-Googling process. I’d start this morning except I’m going to a brunch with some friends and I’m terrible about being interrupted and resuming so I’ll wait to start. I have absolutely had enough of Google and their antics. Google has reached trillion dollar valuation…

One of the problems with having Major Depressive Disorder is dealing with mornings. Mornings continue to be really difficult and I awaken feeling down but not quite as down as I used to. I think it is because antidepressant medication levels might be lower? I really have no idea and I am left wondering why…

Today began with a trip to the Social Security office at 9 to hopefully have this hearing for an expedited benefits reinstatement for my Social Security Disability Insurance benefits. I hate these waiting rooms because they’re noisy and people are breaking the no cell phone rule left and right. The sense of entitlement is real.…

It took awhile for the importance of self-praise to sink in. I understood it from an intellectual perspective but not viscerally. This evening I felt it viscerally. I’m beginning to understand the importance on a deep level. The partial hospitalization program that I was in last month kept harping on self praise and positive affirmation…

This morning I am again up early and doing a lot of thinking – perhaps too much thinking – about the future. I am worried about my financial and housing situation right now. I have a lot to do including starting to get rid of some excess possessions and downsizing. I know that I will…

I am about to embark again on a long dormant activity: bicycle riding. The last time I did any distance riding was about 10 years ago and I truly miss riding. I miss the activity and miss the good feeling that it would give me. My brother brought my bicycle out of storage yesterday, Sunday,…