I woke up this morning feeling in a pretty good mood until I checked my phone and saw that my manager gave away a shift he offered to me to somebody else. Yes, that definitely frustrated me quite a bit because the shift he offered me was on a Saturday night at a location that is peaceful and relaxing. It is a site to work at that makes both financial sense and a positive mental health environment. In other words, it’s simply collecting a check which is the best part!
I just noticed that I am learning to say the quiet part out loud. Worker bees like myself are expected to shut up and take the propaganda. We are only allowed to open our mouths when we are reinforcing or praising said messages. When people are no longer afraid to say the quiet part out loud, real revolution happens. I am also learning, albeit slowly, how I can enjoy manipulating the rigged system from within.
Yes, I am frustrated by a part of the lot in life that I’ve been dealt. I enjoy whining like every other human being that denies they whine and complain. It becomes unhealthy when I do not take steps to improve things. I guess I am kind of doing that. I don’t really know because my brain is still in a depressed state. I cannot fully trust certain feelings and emotions just yet. Maybe I just need to keep my eyes forward and keep moving forward, even if it is just 2 steps forward only to take 1 backward.
One of the things that I am proud of myself is that I am actively unlearning some of the concepts that I’ve been taught. One of these concepts is the notion of absolutes.The world is full of grey areas which are where real ideas get formulated. I now have no problem making a carefully calculated financial decisions that will benefit me over anyone outside my family and friends circle. It’s so freeing once you learn this.
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