Today marks the beginning of a new week and it has not started out so well. I feel really nauseous and tired which is bringing me down; feet hurt as well because of the diabetic neuropathy. I wish life would be easier but it is not. But I am very excited for my friend, Jim. He has a really promising interview today and I am cheering him on. The job would be perfect for him because it is work from home. I hope he will fill me in on the details.
I just don’t know what I feel like doing. My boss offered me a shift today but I couldn’t take it because of the nausea and the fact that I would be standing all day long. That will be a recipe for tossing my cookies. I could’ve really used the money from the shift. Hopefully an extra shift or two will come up later this week when I am feeling better.
Why does it feel like I am going in circles? Why does it feel like I am constantly setting goals only to never start them? I think this is the depression talking. Depression does correlate well with inertia and I do know this. How do I light a fire under my fanny to get this business going and what am I so afraid of? I think these will all be questions to ask my therapist, Nan, tomorrow. They’re topics to be discussed. Maybe the goals I have set are too much for me right now and I need to start smaller and simpler …..
I think I will make a nutritious breakfast for myself. I know I would like to be eating more fruits and vegetables in my diet. I am not eating enough of these basic foods and I know it is not helping me any.
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