I am cautiously optimistic because I have had a second night in a row of okay sleep. I still would not call it good but at least it is okay now and not ourightly bad. My thoughts still tend to race at night but I did not really use any coping skills last night when I could have. I wish I had opened my novel and read for a short while but I did not because my thoughts were racing and I felt that I would end up reading the same sentence over and over again. If I were to analyze this, I made the mistake of trusting my feeling instead of actually opening the book and giving it a shot.
I remember that recovery from depression starts with the basics which the partial hospitalization program that I am attending calls ADLs which are adult daily living responsibilities. ADLs include hygiene tasks, cleanliness, organization, and just about any other tasks necessary for effective functioning. Well last night I showered and brushed my teeth and this morning I brushed my teeth. Considering that depression has caused hygiene to slip, I am celebrating this as a net win.
This week I have a goal in mind which is to walk around the neighborhood when I get home from the partial program. I am going to throw on a pair of shorts and take a walk. My goal is 20 minutes for this week as it is better for me to do time instead of distance. This week I also want to have all electronics with the exception of some TV turned off by 8:00PM. I also want to get the computer that I just prepared for playing EVE Online going. I promised my friend Jim that I would get up to speed because he is looking for a partner to play the game with.
So this week I want to get a message passed to the psychiatric nurse practitioner that I am still struggling with sleep and racing thoughts as maybe has some ideas. Or at least I am hoping he has some ideas because I would like to be able to take a pill and have it magically disappear. If this is impossible, I will have to use coping skills and that would probably be reading. I think I will ask for some suggestions from the group as to what works for my fellow members on unwinding for bedtime. If I do not ask, then I am not inviting assistance and people are understandably loathe to inject an opinion unsolicited.