I am up unusually earlier this morning because my mind was really active last night and the dreams were, while not horrible, were just disturbing enough that I finally lost my desire to go to sleep altogether. Despite this, I am feeling pretty good because I will be able to resume my masters in social work classes come January whereas I thought I would have to wait until the fall of the next year to start again. The medical problems have really been hard on me.
Today is going to be a long day and I want to make it as productive as possible. A good chunk will be taken up simply in the travel time that it takes when you don’t own a car in the car culture that the US is. My first stop en route to UD campus is to the outpatient lab so I can get more blood work done. I am hoping my INRs will be in range this time. Warfarin is a pain in the ass as a blood thinner. Too low clots form and too high the risk of internal bleeding becomes serious as even slight injuries could cause problems. After this stop, I make my way to campus to medically withdraw this semester. Then return home. By the time all this happens, a full day will be spent.
When someone tells you that you have enough time to do a lot of things in one day, which coincidentally is what a conservative-minded person would say, it is totally legitimate to remind them that not everybody’s 24 hours is the same. What should be relatively quick errands become drawn-out affairs when you rely on a perpetually underfunded and unreliable public transportation system. Not everyone can afford the a car, let alone the expenses of owning one. I dream of being able to afford one but it just isn’t in the cards right now.
A car would make a lot of things much easier right now. I often joke that I should go out and steal a Kia or Hyundai and join in on the fun as they’re the most stolen cars on the market right now. But there’s no beating a electronic databases and certainly no beating a police Motorola radio. š
I would even happily have a hoopty beater to drive around. I’m certainly not a discerning shopper in that regard. The only things I ask is that it has AC and heat, starts, and the transmission at least minimally works. It could even stall once in a while and I’d be okay with that. The thing could be beaten up and scratched to shit with mis-matched panels and I wouldn’t care. I’m not too proud. I’d just be happy to get from point A to B.
I’m really looking forward to Halloween this year as I do every year. It is the one day out of every year that has no psychological trauma, fear of rejection, emotional manipulation, etc. associated with it. To me, Halloween is just pure fun, a safe space where nothing bad has ever happened to me. It represents perhaps the only memories of childhood that are not painful, confusing, or perplexing.
I guess that is about the size of it for today. I hope my friends overseas are all doing well and that we make the day the best we can.