This morning I am struggling quite a bit because life is a constant struggle. I feel the kind of tired that won’t be recouped by sleep. I woke up after only a few hours of sleep and just simply decided that I’ve had enough and it’s time to get up. That much said, the day already feels kind of heavy. This is going to be another week where my weekend won’t really be restful when it needs to be. Work is wearing me down because the job is active and requires being on your feet. In fact, this is probably the second most active security officer job that I have ever had. The first was being a mall security guard back in the 1990s.

I was also quite a bit younger back then. At almost 50, I would like something a lot simpler but simple often means less money and this is the most money I have ever earned working in unarmed security. As long as I can hold on to this job, I am not going to let go. At least the time seems to fly because I am generally busy with a variety of tasks and forget to watch the clock. However, walking around or standing on a hard cement floor is tiring.

The bottom line is that I need a vacation or more than 2 days off. I ended up taking off on the 15th just because I need a three day weekend. I need 3 days away from Allied Universal and the site that I am on. Fortunately, we have a part timer that willingly picked up the extra 8 hours. Yes, I don’t want to lose 8 hours but I am tired beyond all reason.

I am going to try to get my colonoscopy done then. I keep forgetting to call to make that appointment and it is because I really don’t want to do it. That much said, early detection can mean a cure. It is important to get this procedure done and over with.