On Tuesday I was admitted to the hospital. Thankfully I did not have a stroke like the doctors suspected. I am however dizzy and tired all the time. I don’t know what the cause of this is and it is concerning. I was just too tired and foggy to blog yesterday.
At any rate, I’m going to need a cane all of the time now for safety reasons. Aging can be difficult. But I must learn to accept this instead of feeling remorse for missed opportunities and connections. I actually have a good future ahead of my doctors can figure out what’s going on.
It looks like business plans will need to be put on hold for a bit while I figure things out. I’ve been in a brain fog for the past two days. I hope I’ll be ready to go today. I miss my love and my bed. Maybe all this happening this week is changing my priorities. Maybe it’s okay to simply live basically.
I feel strangely without much emotion right now. I feel like I’m existing but quietly. It’s difficult to explain. I miss my computers and my home lab. It’s so much fun to experiment with Linux and BSD. I miss that kind of fun right now. It’s fulfilling fun. 🤓
Nobody really knows what the future holds but I hope things will get better than they are now. This year has started out difficult. It hasn’t been easy psychologically or medically for that matter. I guess I’m fine using a cane all or most of the time. Acceptance can be a good thing.
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