Last night and this morning I find myself doing some really deep thinking about some various, yet oddly interconnecting ways. Last night I was thinking about time and the white persons’ peculiar preoccupation with it. Yes, time is a unique preoccupation of people of Caucasian persuasion and I know it because I am that person and I hate it. Time is a meaningless social construct designed to control us. I want to go back to an era when the only measure of “time” that mattered was the changing of the seasons. Or even for the nomadic peoples, the migrations of animal herds and shepherding.
Then this morning I was thinking about self-identity and how I identify, and by proxy, we, identity ourselves. Again, it seems to be a uniquely white concept to identify ourselves by what we do. I am trying to break myself of this habit. I want to identify myself by my hobbies, loves, interests, and passions. Work only need be what I do to make ends meet. I realize I spend an arguably disproportionate amount of time defining myself as a security guard instead of a Linux power user cum expert, a motorcycle rider, an animal rights advocate, and a radical progressive leftist. That sounds a lot better than an occupation that the media has turned everyone against.
I really want to have a personal reboot on my thinking. It begins with realizing I am more than what I do for a living. I do need to upgrade my security guard license to an armed one so that my earning potential reaches low to mid $20s per hour. That I do not mind so much because more money may help me hate what I am doing less – 😆. If having a bit more money provides a bit less stress and makes self-identification easier, then I am all for it!
I have some life options ahead of me. I don’t see myself affording a car anytime soon and I am bleeding red ink over Uber and Lyft rides. In order to see more of my hard-earned money, having a little electric scooter would be very welcome and nice. It would save me probably in the neighborhood of $150-$200 a month. That’s a lot of money maybe 27% of a single paycheck that was spent in commute alone. I already took a look at my cell phone bill and got it down by about $35 a month. Every little bit adds up.
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