This morning I am battling anger and depression and I slept like shit. I woke up every two hours and had just plain weird dreams. I don’t really know what’s going on but I am going to see my psychiatric physican’s assistant today. I am going to tell him what I am feeling and maybe he might need to tweak my medication regimen a little. I don’t really know. All I really know is that I am both pissed off and depressed at the same time. I am angry about the suffering that I have to endure. I am angry that I cannot get a fair shake right now.
Tomorrow is the big day for moving and man I’d be lying if I told you I was excited or happy. I am moving from a fairly nice place into a fucking hovel but it’s about all I can afford. Yeah, it’s in a nice and safe neighborhood but my roommates are fucking pigs and I am going to have to keep on top of them to do something, as if I don’t already have enough to do.
I decided to start out the day with some breakfast at the diner. I just needed an escape, if even for only a short time. Some French Toast and bacon will go down nicely I guess. I also wanted to beat the heat because it is supposed to get hotter than hades today. It’s days like these that I understand how and why people snap. There’s only so much a person can take before they crumble. I crumble, I don’t snap.
I am sick of the absolute idiocracy in the United States. Why is it that complete and utter fucking morons get elevated into levels of power? It’s bad enough that they’re idiots but made even worse by the fact that they’re psychopathic idiots. I hate how those in power take absolute delight in the suffering of people like me; poor and disabled.
I feel so much in despair that I think it ain’t even worth voting in this election cycle. I have a choice between fascist and fascist-lite. Two senile old white men to choose from; if one could even call that much of a choice anyway. I don’t even know why I keep soldiering on. Two presidential candidates that are both pro-corporate. Nobody represents my interests.
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