I am going to be moving on Tuesday and I just cannot seem to get my butt in gear. I know I still have some packing and cleaning to do but it’s all so overwhelming. I am not sleeping well and that may be causing a lot of anxiety. I guess I am also feeling it because my stomach is again really upset and acidic. I will complete the last of the packing today and do the last of the cleaning tomorrow.
I want to make some time today to start reading the book I just bought called The Complete Developer by Martin Krause. It is supposed to teach full stack web development through a project-based approach. I am hopeful that the book can at least set me on a learning path. I tend to learn best from reading from actual print material. I plan on spending an hour working on it.
Again my thoughts are drifting towards the future and how bleak it is actually looking for me. I wish my brain did not hate me like it does. It seems destined to make life even more difficult than it already is. The medication that I take helps a little and is better than nothing but I really need to take steps on my own to help. I am hoping my book will engage my brain outside of the self-loathing it typically generates.
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