Last night was one of the rare nights that I had breakthrough PTSD dreams. Unfortunately, the medication, Clonodine, isn’t quite perfect about blocking the nightmares but it is good about 95% of the time. Last night, I had the breakthrough nightmares and they were intense. It was so bad I was awake at 3:30 and…

I am pissed off because I really got scammed and am now feeling the brunt of it. What’s worse is that there’s nothing I can do until October 15th rolls around. I am on Social Security Disability Insurance and I recently had to choose a Medicare supplement, often called MediGap, because it covers the 20%…

I desperately need better housing than what I have. I mean I am grateful that I have a roof over my head but my housemates are absolute pigs and nothing I can or say will convince them to clean up after themselves better. I have one housemate who suffers from schizo-affective disorder and he refuses…

I think I know why yesterday was so rough in the afternoon. I forgot to take my afternoon dose of my antidepressant. Since I’ve had gastric bypass, I cannot take the extended release version of medications due to absorption issues. Therefore, I take half the dose in the morning and the other half around 2pm.…

I don’t know why but I am really struggling today. I just cannot seem to be able to start anything or get anything done. I really want to be able to make progress on my Red Hat Certification studies but it’s just not happening. I am reading the same paragraph over and over and that’s…

So I think I have probably found love again. It’s been a very long time but I think I am in love with Denisse, the girl that I was connected with through my friend Jim. I’ve grown to really care for her even though I haven’t met her in real life. She’s pretty much what…

Today I am going to be helping a friend build a ramp for his shed. I am looking forward to the activity and getting out of the house. Mostly I am looking forward to spending time with my friend. We have to build the supports as well as paint them with a sealant to prevent…

As the title reads, I am feeling really unmotivated today. I don’t feel like doing anything except sleeping and maybe reading. I don’t feel physically real great either so there’s that. I know that I really want to be doing some studying towards obtaining my Red Hat certification but I am still reading the same…

So a friend of mine introduced me to his friend, a girl he knew in high school and is friends with on Facebook. They were never an item but friends. I’ve been talking to her now for about three weeks and she’s really growing on me. Our conversations are usually pretty deep and meaningful. The…